Seriously I need to keep this thing updated more often

You know as I look around to the many blogs I keep around the internet I'm starting to wonder just whom am I doing these updates for and I finally come to realization I'm doing it for me. Of course I would love for people to subscribe to my blog read and comment but honestly it doesn't matter to me. I'm keeping these online journals so hopefully one day I can look back and see some improvement and maybe avoid some of the crap I am going through in my life right now. I have so much going on in my life right now it isn't funny. I'm in the midst of growing my hair out, job hunting since I just finished school, dealing with Brandon (my son) and trying to lose weight and strength training. I'm doing good on all aspects except the job search this is a crazy job market we are in. I mean I am a newly licensed nurse and I can't seem to find work, I'm either going to have to go back to school to further my education or take some bullshit job just to support myself and my son. Hopefully something will come through soon because I don't want to feel like I wasted my time going to school for nursing.

The weight loss journey is exactly what it is a journey. I'm making progress but this is going to be a long road because this is not just a short term solution this is a lifetime commitment.

I'm 2 months post-perm right now not much new growth to speak of, in the midst of trying out different transition styles. I am no where near ready for a BC(Big Chop) Going natural was a big decision for me and I'm thinking it is going to be a good one. I can't even remember what hair looks like unprocessed because I was subjected to this torture at an early age but I am now taking back control of my hair and going to take one day at a time. Who knows this may be a phase or it may turn out to be a lifetime commitment.



As for Brandon, that is going to be a whole other blog by itself he is such a handful but I wouldn't trade him for the world.

Hopefully I will getto post some pictures on the next update until then later.

100 days until the new decade

Wow these years are moving aren't they.I can't believe 9 years have gone by and here we are with only a 100 days left until the new decade. Well I plan on using these 100 days wisely. I am going to start living my lofe to the fullest, I'm tired of exisiting I want to live.

My Theme Song and New Wake up song

Destiny Child Happy Face


Ah-ah, ah ah-ah, ah ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah....

I woke up this morning, the sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able, I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

Woke up and realized this world's not so bad after all
Looked at it through a child's eyes, and I saw these beautiful
Things that you never think about
Like the ocean, moonlight, stars and clouds
It's amazing how we don't appreciate our blessings
There's plenty of people who don't like me
But since my mama loves me and I love myself
Sometimes, it gets tough, it gets tough
But I can't give up, can't give up
Just take a deep breath, close my eyes
Feel the love and give a smile

I woke up this morning, the sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able, I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

I woke up this morning, the sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able, I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

It's me, I just wanna be happy
Uh, just be happy, uh, just be happy
Today is the day I am willing to say
I will put all the past behind me, no more enemies
Ready cause (ready cause)
I'm living in this world (living in this world)
I wanna make a change (wanna make a change)
I'm Gonna make a change (gonna make a change)
Put on my happy face

I woke up this morning, the sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able, I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

I woke up this morning, the sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able, I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

Everything's gonna be alright, everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright, everything's gonna be okay
Gonna be alright, everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be alright, everything's gonna be okay
Gonna be alright, everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be alright, everything's gonna be okay
Gonna be alright, everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be alright, everything's gonna be okay

I woke up this morning, the sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able, I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

I woke up this morning, the sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able, I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

I woke up this morning with a happy face
I'm flying, I'm flying, I'm flying, I'm flying
I'm flying, I'm flying, I'm flying, I'm flying
I'm flying, I'm flying, I'm flying, I'm flying
Flying, flying....

Before and After

Well today is the start of a new week so I must start it off right. My room is a mess, I need to study and my hair is a whole nother story. My order of things today is to get my room back into working order because I can't be comfortable ina messy space. I need to wash clothes but that is out of the question because the washer machine is out of commision had I known this I would have made a trip down to the laudromat.

It is 12:25pm July 12, 2009 and I am on a mission to not make this an all day expedition especially since i have to study and get mentally prepared for the upcoming school week.

I am posting these pictures because I need a reminder to never let my room getlike this again. I should have unpacked as soon as I got back into town, there is no excuse for this amount of clutter. Time to break out the trash bags because half of this stuff is junk.

---Well there seems to be a problem and I can't upload the pictures at the moment will try again later.

Fireworks at the Taste of Chicago

Happy Fourth of July Everyone!!!!!
Pictures and Videos coming soon.

Gotta Love Chicago

What would have been the point of coming to Chicago and not partaking in the Taste of Chicago. I haven't been in like five years and even though the tickets are a lot more expensive I still have fun. I am glad that someone had the bright idea to move all the vendors off to the sides, I have no idea who thought having the vendors in the middle was the right move. I could actually move through the crowd and not feel claustrophobic.

This was the first time Brandon had been and he loved every minute of it. I'm pretty sure he has never seen that many people in one place at one time. He ate everything I ate but I think his favorite or should I say favorite by far were the sausage pizza from Connies pizza and the chicken wings from Harold's.

BTW for I'm taking up donations for the Brandon needs his own cell phone fund. The boy won't say 2 words when he gets the thing but he just has to have it plastered to his ear at all times. I wonder where he gets his cell phone addiciton from.

New Hair do

Well I have been talking about cutting my hair for some time now and on Friday I just went for it. I absolutely love it, I'm probably going to cry about it tomorrow but what can I do its cut now. I'm going back for highlights on Wednesday will post new photos.

Today is truly a sad day.

Today is truly a sad day. June 25, 2009 we lost two great entertainers. Farrah Fawcett (February 2, 1947[1] – June 25, 2009) and Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009). My heart goes out to both family and their fans. Farrah put a long hard fight and she is truly in a better place. Michael's death was so unexpected, there have been rumors of him being sick but no one especially me was prepared for the news flash that he was rushed to the hospital in cardiac arrest. I am still in shock and probably will be for quite some time.

I Have Arrived

Good morning, I have no idea why I am up this early this is supposed to be a vacation. I went to sleep late last night or should I say early this morning and yet here U am wide awake. My baby whom I just knew was going to be up is still knocked out but not for long he must wake up I have to return his sleep schedule to some semblance of normal.

I Love this Song.

Yes I can Breathe Again.

Evening people.

I can honestly say today was good day even though I had to take three finals today. I had one comprehensive test and two ATI tests. For those of you possibly reading this blog and wondering just what the heck is an ATI. Well ATI is this company that puts together learning materials and tests for all kinds of subjects but the particular ATI I'm taking is for nurses.I know my grades for the two ATI's and I'm happy to say that I passed not with flying colors but hey a pass is a pass. I'm officially on Summer break I am out of school until July 7th and I am going to have a blast. I leave for Chicago on the 15th and I can't wait.

I did get to hang out with my girls again today and I am truly going to miss them while I'm away. On an interesting not today I saw the strangest thing happen today. Take a look at the picture. Here is the back story. So I'm hungry and decide to grab a bite to eat at Church's and this is what I witness. The transformer or what ever you call it burst into flames on top of the power lines. I have never seen anything like it and was about to call 911 because this all just happened to happen right in front of a Gas Station. Danger was averted when it burned itself out Thank God.

4th level nursing is almost done

Okay good people or should I say person since I only have one person following this blog. LOL!!! Anyway I'm don't have much to say except I am so happy that this quarter is almost over, actually it is over tomorrow is finals and then I am off to Chicago for 3 weeks of relaxation and partying. My girls (Shekita and Angel) and I finally found a Mexican restaurant close enough to the school for us to get lunch and still make it back to class on time or should I say almost on time. Lunch was at 11:30 and I am still full and it is 8pm, I definitely feel I got my money's worth. For anyone interest the name of the place is La Fiesta and it is on Virgina Avenue in College Park (I think that is College Park). Enough of this random rambling I'm off to study.

There's Nothing Like A new Hair Do

Well every since I took my micros out last week I have been going insane with my hair. Let's just say I was in desperate need of a touch up and some of my hair got chopped off inadvertently. I decided enough was enough and did what I had to do and made a trip to the salon. Nothing like a new hair do to make a girl happy. I'm going back in 2 weeks for some highlights if money is looking right.

Of course the first picture is the before and the second picture is the after. Not really a good picture but hey its all I got for now hopefully I will get some new ones tomorrow. I am slowly starting down the road to a new me. Tomorrow is pamper me day so Manicure and Pedicure it is along with getting my eyebrows done. Oh yes its all about me and Me son from this day forward. Speaking of the munchkin here is a picture of the little man.

Under Construction

It has been brought to my attention by a certain friend (you know whom you are) that I have not updated this blog in a month of Sundays. Well that is all about to change because I am going to turn all this negative energy surrounding me into something positive.

Starting Over Yet Again

Here i am at this crossroads again. I am not going to say that this time I'm going to do it, because it is always I'm going to do it this time. I am just going to take it one day at a time. I believe in myself and I am going to get my life back in order starting now. I am taking this matter into my own hands.

I have 4 goals:

1: Maintain a weight of 125-135lbs
2. Finish Nursing School, take boards and get a job
3. Dig myself out of Debt
4. Get my own place

These are in no particular order but number 2 will probably happen before any of the others happen. I am working on them simutaneously.